Michelle Rodriguez has revealed she was jealous when her Fast and Furious co-star Paul Walker died.
Paul Walker was sadly killed in a car crash in November 2013, and his passing left everyone shell-shocked especially Michelle... In a new documentary The Reality of Truth, whilst under the influence of a psychedelic plant called Ayahuasca, the actress revealed her true feelings about his death.
"I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal,"
"Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that?"
"I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself and I'll tell you that my ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here. It wasn't a sadness that he's gone, it's more like a jealousy that he's there first."
Michelle also revealed in the documentary that the Ayahuasca had led to her having an "awakening" and "brought the destruction of everything I’ve ever known."
“I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who’s deep like me, who loves like that. When that disappears, you wonder, ‘Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?’ There was nothing to tether me to this existence: ‘Why am I f**king here? And, like, why’d you leave without me?’”