Chrissy Teigen is slaying the game at the moment. The 31-year-old is laying the Twitterverse, being crack up on the red carpet, being a wife to hubby John Legend and being a mum to her wee daughter, Luna.
Chrissy is known for being an open book. She's super honest and answers any question you throw at her.
But there's one thing she's only just become ready to talk about publicly, her suffering of postpartum depression.
Speaking to Glamour Magazine, Chrissy said "in April, John and I started our family together. We had our daughter, Luna, who is perfect. She is somehow exactly me, exactly John, and exactly herself. I adore her."
She went on to say how even though she had everything she needed to be happy, she felt so unhappy for most of last year. She said that everyone else knew she was suffering from postpartum depression, but she didn't.
Chrissy went on to describe what her pregnancy was like, "I had such a wonderful, energetic pregnancy. Luna sat inside me like a little cross-legged Buddha facing toward my back for nine months. I never saw her face in a sonogram, just her butt or the back of her feet."
"After I had Luna, our home was under construction, so we lived in a rental home, then a hotel, and I blamed whatever stress or detachment or sadness I was feeling at that time on the fact that there were so many odd circumstances."
Chrissy went back to work when little Luna was four months old. Her workplace was incredible when Chrissy got back to work - building a nursery in her dressing room, put photos of Luna & John around the place, lowered noise levels, turned up the heating and allowed her to have pump breaks.
Even though Chrissy had all she needed when she went to work, she struggled to get out of bed to get on set in time. Her body ached and she didn't have an appetite.
Apart from going to work, Chrissy said she never left the house.
"Most days were spent on the exact same spot on the couch and rarely would I muster up the energy to make it upstairs for bed. John would sleep on the couch with me, sometimes four nights in a row. I started keeping robes and comfy clothes in the pantry so I wouldn’t have to go upstairs when John went to work. There was a lot of spontaneous crying."
"Before the holidays I went to my GP for a physical. John sat next to me. I looked at my doctor, and my eyes welled up because I was so tired of being in pain. Of sleeping on the couch. Of waking up throughout the night. Of throwing up. Of taking things out on the wrong people. Of not enjoying life. Of not seeing my friends. Of not having the energy to take my baby for a stroll. My doctor pulled out a book and started listing symptoms. And I was like, “Yep, yep, yep.” I got my diagnosis: postpartum depression and anxiety. (The anxiety explains some of my physical symptoms.)"
Chrissy opened up about her suffering to Glamour magazine in the hopes to help other women suffering and let them know that it's okay to feel what they're feeling.
John & Chrissy are stilll in love, she loves Luna more than ever and she still hopes to give Luna a few siblings.
She signs off the letter saying, 'Phew! I've hated hiding this from you'.
Awhh... We forgive you Chrissy!